The Unborn Truth

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Hopelessly Unemployed

So I am really beginning to think that I have no future other than being a mother.  It is just not in the stars for me I suppose. Just to think that all that money was just all a waste. Thousands upon thousands of dollars spent on higher education to get me where I am today. Unemployed. Hopeless.

I used to admire this woman. She seemed so strong and ambitious. Nothing could get her down. No man would dare go against her. 

Where did my strength go? Where is the ambition? 

I am beat down and hopeless...

Love the Way You Lie

It took me 4 months to listen to the song "Love the Way You Lie" by Eminem, featuring Rihanna. I still cannot bring myself to sit through the music video, as the song is emotionally triggering in itself, it brings back all those painful memories that have been stored deep into subconsciousness. However, one my ever-so-trustworthy defense mechanisms, intellectualization, helps me truly appreciate this piece of music. Eminem portrays the dynamics of domestic violence extremely well, although at the times, seems more extreme than most cases that I have seen. Nonetheless, aside from the dramatic effect, I am sure perpetrators sometimes do think "if she ever tries to fucking leave again Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire." That's the beauty of this song: the abuser loves the victim, but the need for control leads to violence, and ultimately turns love into hate.