Hopelessly Unemployed

So I am really beginning to think that I have no future other than being a mother.  It is just not in the stars for me I suppose. Just to think that all that money was just all a waste. Thousands upon thousands of dollars spent on higher education to get me where I am today. Unemployed. Hopeless.

I used to admire this woman. She seemed so strong and ambitious. Nothing could get her down. No man would dare go against her. 

Where did my strength go? Where is the ambition? 

I am beat down and hopeless...